Not very often I would write this type of post, but been feeling down lately. Lots of things on my mind. I can't even figure out how the hell they got in there in the first place. Been sick for more than a week now with suspected hernia. The pain in my navel area can go from mild to excruciating painful. My temperature been going up and down as well. And I am actually still deciding if I should go for another checkup. Guess I just don't have the heart to do anything right now.
Been this way for days now. And NOT surprisingly, no one seems to notice. None at all. Everytime I am at my lowest peak, somehow none of my friends seems to notice. Either I am very good at acting or they just don't bother to care. My hunch goes to the latter. I don't want to expect much from them. Expectation only leads to disappointment. And by the way, who am I anyway to expect something from them. I am just a mere single person, who just happened to cross path with them. No one important. A nobody. *No self-pity intended*
Besides, I learnt the hard way that even if I treat someone nice, that doesn't mean I'll be treated back the same way. No matter how nice you treat someone, the person still can make a choice on how to treat you back. I learnt a painful lesson in the past due to my own naivety. Maybe more to come in the near future.
But anyway, I been alone almost my whole life. Whenever I needed someone the most, there was never anyone. No family, no friends. Just me, on my own. Am used to it. But having say that, it would have been nice if there is someone. At least I may know, there is still someone who actually care for a person like me.
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